Mai-chan's resolution

On 20 Feb., Mai-chan expressed her resolution in this year in her Google+.

http://plus.google.com/102642528528615796356/posts/G6aqBGqsR5x

The following is its English translation.
The translation may be not good, however, we are happy if it tell you her mind.

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The follow-up of my hopes in this year is now belatedly expressed ��
This statement might be very long because I had continued to write it using my cell phone after the turn of the year...lol

One subject is the ardor for the concerts performed in Yoyogi Gymnasiums 1 soon, and another is the general election that was not mentioned in the statement presented January.

It is long and rambling, however, I am presenting it to share my heart with you. If you read the whole statement, I will be happy(T . T)

About the general election.

I was not called in the 5th election at Nissan Stadium and the 6th election at Ajinomot Stadium.

 In those days my fans cheered up and voted me, but it was very hard to get a place.

The result of the general election held once a year is quite important in 48 Group.
It is not all, however, we feel so.

Somewhile I thought "if the election is not held..."
I thought the election to be excuse.
Now I know that my attitude was very sorry to my fans who supported me.
I am sorry m(._.)m

Even as I was so, I got a place for the first time in the 7th election last year!
Surely you realized it.
I really appreciate it.

The last election saved me who thought "if the election is not held..." ever.

The expression "saved" may be not suitable...

Those around me said that I was not enough for something, or that I should explore my future.
I was mortificated at those words and I tried small things I can do.

I could not stand out in HKT48 and someone might wonder about that I joined HKT48. But I thought that I might get a place in the 3rd trial for the election because I realized that my fans increases little by little.
So I could write my target clearly on the poster 🙆

You let me think so and my present self is because of you.

In the predictions and expectations in advance, my name could not be found out. Of course, there was not such a situation lol, but I was mortified a little ^ ^.

So I was not only pleased but also scared when I got the 15th place when the preliminary report and I attracted attention in many situations at once, since I had not be spotlighted before the preliminary report lol.

At Yafuoku! Dome, 6 June, I got the 31st!
It was my very first experience.v I felt the weight of the trophy, and my finger marks were printed and my hand sweat was stuck on my trophy.
Later, my name was carved in the trophy, which was polished to sheen, and came back to me.

In the final concerts of the national tour in Yokohama Arena after the election,
I sang in unit groups in all three concerts,
when I felt the effect of the election maximally.
I had phrases I sang alone in big concerts... That pleased me ( ; ; )

I stood on the second floor stage or the runway for long time because I was not a selection member!
For that reason, I could be close to the audiences and it was my pleasure☺️
I thought that I should shine better than anyone did everywhere!
However, I had to sing my own phrases of the songs, an original member of which I was, without miking, because their phrases were sung by the current selection members,,

Confirming the concert DVD, I recognized that chances to come out decreased because of no phrases I sang.
Even though I am not a selection member, I can do something and have chances. But differences I cannot overcome anywise exist.
So I wanted to be a selection member!

In the current concert tour, I perform as a selection member of "Shekarashika!". I can sing songs an original member of which I am after a long time!

It means that some members now feels like as former me.
Some fans of the members may resent me who sing songs at the position of the member (´･_･`)

Even so I love songs, an original member of which I am not.
Singing their songs, I remember the mind I felt when I could not be an original member.
Remembering the mind, I am close to tears and brave out it, since the audiences wonder if I cry.
Feeling a regret that I am not an original member of such a beautiful song, I cherish to sing the song (´･_･`)
I am happy if you understand my feeling even a little,,

Keeping doing it, I want to decrease occasions I feel regret.

I also want to decrease occasions I make my fans feel nervous each time the original members are announced ^ ^lol

Since we share many feelings, our unity is the most powerful 😅


When I was chosen as an original member of " Hatsukoi butterfly", I thought "I could?" in my mind. Now, I have different feeling.

I feel chagrin rather than blue!
I feel I have been stronger.
You push up me, and I can feel chagrin even as a selection member.
I think I must not be satisfied.
Nevertheless, I am happy with my position ^o^
I have a fun very much!!

Many things will happen to me.
This may have been said from the end of the last year... (⌒- ⌒; )

I would proceed fixing my eyes forward without the influence of surroundings.

It is not better to come across chagrin, which would be changed to my power!

I want to go for above more and more!

The documentary film let me think many things.
Each member has own story.
Each fan also has own story.
Many stories are combined to make HKT48!
I hope that this film help to increase people who likes HKT48!

I want to be a member who is essential to tell the history of HKT48

More and more!

I want to be an essential member rather than a necessary member; they are not the same even like as the same!

Finally,,
I want to get a place in the next election if it is held this year.

Many fans ask me what is my target rank order.

I was afraid of telling it and have avoided doing. Now I do (>_<)(>_<)

The target of the 7th election was 65th that means the center of Up Coming Girls, and I aspired to get a place without adherence of its order.
I decided that I would go for the group upper than it I got last year if I got a place.

Drawing the next target as mentioned above means that the target is 16th or above position; it means a selection member for the song of AKB48, which does not have a name “so-and-so Girls”

I thought that members who aimed to be selection members of AKB48 were awesome so far. I am wondering whether I aim it now..

The other day, I sang “Sayonara surfboard” of Under Girls in Request Hour 2016!
The member of Under Girls met whereafter shooting the music video.
Seeing the members, I noticed that the most members aimed to be a selection member in the previous election.
I felt how great it was that I joined these members.

It was natural that everybody felt surprised that I joined in Under Girls (^_^;)
My fans made it!

Getting the 31st last year and getting the 31st place this year.
It may be harder in this year… Of course, I know.
Even so, I want to go for upper if I try!

For a superior position of Under Girls..

For achievement of it, I have to aim a selection member.
If I have a weak mind, I shall lose it.
A selection member position is too high, however, it is set as my target!

Such an overambitious will get me in wrong?
It is very very high aim for me...

You may say what I say or it is impossible, but I do not mind.

I admittedly am afraid of the election this year.
Everyday I ask myself that I am eligible this year.
Nevertheless I do not want to avoid it!

I want to get a place again this year!
I want to try it with you.

Whereas I write these desires, nothing relevant to the election is announced ^ ^

It may be too early, but I think that I should now express things I think now 😅

Holding a respect in each activity, performances in the theater, shaking-hand events and SNS, thanking people who help me, I commit HKT48!

Please support me m(._.)m

Mai Fuchigami